Sunday, September 6, 2009

RIP

I leave for Mexico again tonight.

My grandma just passed away...

I've never screamed for anyone like that before...

this hurts.

I have the problem where I seem to think my loved ones will live forever...
once they do go, I feel... surprised... even if they WERE in their 80s... with broken bones... and the worst case of senile dementia.
They're MY loved ones. THEY WON'T DIE.

:(

Poor grandma...
poor mom... her birthday's Wednesday...
:(

At least... I'll have great memories with my grandma, right?
I mean... I WAS the only one who could make her laugh this summer... (I'd sing on guitar hero, and she'd laugh at me... which I didn't mind, because I do anything to make people smile, and to make HER smile, in all that anguish she was in... I'd do ANYTHING, even if it meant having the rest of town think I was crazy with my wail-singing in the mornings and evenings. "WHY DO THEY ALWAYS SEND THE POOOOOOOR!!?!" hahaha)

Abuela, la adoro!!!!
Thank you for EVERYTHING you ever gave me... and I wish I had one one-hundredth of the courage and patience you had.
And thanks for my mean-mug... I represent Garcia to the max with that bad boy!
:)

3 comments:

Native Minnow said...

I'm sorry. I thought this year was supposed to be better for you and your family. I hope things look up soon.

**hugs**

Native Minnow said...

I did visit my grandparents recently, in part because I was thinking about this. I'll likely be losing one of them in the next few months, so I wanted to make sure I saw her while she's in the care center. She's 92 and ready, but it's still going to suck when it happens. That said, I didn't stay longer than about an hour, so I feel like a bad person.

Qulls said...

well, i do had lost someone...
its my father..
i lost him on 06..i was only 12 that time..
he's a great lovin father...
maybe...i understand your feeling..
so..cheer up...